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Home: Poetry: Conrad Aiken: Over the Darkened City
| OVER THE DARKENED CITY |
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a poem by Conrad Aiken
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- Over the darkened city, the city of towers,
- The city of a thousand gates,
- Over the gleaming terraced roofs, the huddled towers,
- Over a somnolent whisper of loves and hates,
- The slow wind flows, drearily streams and falls,
- With a mournful sound down rain-dark walls.
- On one side purples the lustrous dusk of the sea,
- And dreams in white at the city's feet;
- On one side sleep the plains, with heaped-up hills.
- Oaks and beeches whisper in rings about it.
- Above the trees are towers where dread bells beat.
- The fisherman draws his streaming net from the sea
- And sails toward the far-off city, that seems
- Like one vague tower.
- The dark bow plunges to foam on blue-black waves,
- And shrill rain seethes like a ghostly music about him
- In a quiet shower.
- Rain with a shrill sings on the lapsing waves;
- Rain thrills over the roofs again;
- Like a shadow of shifting silver it crosses the city;
- The lamps in the streets are streamed with rain;
- And sparrows complain beneath deep eaves,
- And among whirled leaves
- The sea-gulls, blowing from tower to lower tower,
- From wall to remoter wall,
- Skim with the driven rain to the rising sea-sound
- And close grey wings and fall . . .
- . . . Hearing great rain above me, I now remember
- A girl who stood by the door and shut her eyes:
- Her pale cheeks glistened with rain, she stood and shivered.
- Into a forest of silver she vanished slowly . . .
- Voices about me rise . . .
- Voices clear and silvery, voices of raindrops,--
- 'We struck with silver claws, we struck her down.
- We are the ghosts of the singing furies . . . '
- A chorus of elfin voices blowing about me
- Weaves to a babel of sound. Each cries a secret.
- I run among them, reach out vain hands, and drown.
- 'I am the one who stood beside you and smiled,
- Thinking your face so strangely young . . . '
- 'I am the one who loved you but did not dare.'
- 'I am the one you followed through crowded streets,
- The one who escaped you, the one with red-gleamed hair.'
- 'I am the one you saw to-day, who fell
- Senseless before you, hearing a certain bell:
- A bell that broke great memories in my brain.'
- 'I am the one who passed unnoticed before you,
- Invisible, in a cloud of secret pain.'
- 'I am the one who suddenly cried, beholding
- The face of a certain man on the dazzling screen.
- They wrote me that he was dead. It was long ago.
- I walked in the streets for a long while, hearing nothing,
- And returned to see it again. And it was so.'
- Weave, weave, weave, you streaks of rain!
- I am dissolved and woven again . . .
- Thousands of faces rise and vanish before me.
- Thousands of voices weave in the rain.
- 'I am the one who rode beside you, blinking
- At a dazzle of golden lights.
- Tempests of music swept me: I was thinking
- Of the gorgeous promise of certain nights:
- Of the woman who suddenly smiled at me this day,
- Smiled in a certain delicious sidelong way,
- And turned, as she reached the door,
- To smile once more . . .
- Her hands are whiter than snow on midnight water.
- Her throat is golden and full of golden laughter,
- Her eyes are strange as the stealth of the moon
- On a night in June . . .
- She runs among whistling leaves; I hurry after;
- She dances in dreams over white-waved water;
- Her body is white and fragrant and cool,
- Magnolia petals that float on a white-starred pool . . .
- I have dreamed of her, dreaming for many nights
- Of a broken music and golden lights,
- Of broken webs of silver, heavily falling
- Between my hands and their white desire:
- And dark-leaved boughs, edged with a golden radiance,
- Dipping to screen a fire . . .
- I dream that I walk with her beneath high trees,
- But as I lean to kiss her face,
- She is blown aloft on wind, I catch at leaves,
- And run in a moonless place;
- And I hear a crashing of terrible rocks flung down,
- And shattering trees and cracking walls,
- And a net of intense white flame roars over the town,
- And someone cries; and darkness falls . . .
- But now she has leaned and smiled at me,
- My veins are afire with music,
- Her eyes have kissed me, my body is turned to light;
- I shall dream to her secret heart tonight . . . '
- He rises and moves away, he says no word,
- He folds his evening paper and turns away;
- I rush through the dark with rows of lamplit faces;
- Fire bells peal, and some of us turn to listen,
- And some sit motionless in their accustomed places.
- Cold rain lashes the car-roof, scurries in gusts,
- Streams down the windows in waves and ripples of lustre;
- The lamps in the streets are distorted and strange.
- Someone takes his watch from his pocket and yawns.
- One peers out in the night for the place to change.
- Rain . . . rain . . . rain . . . we are buried in rain,
- It will rain forever, the swift wheels hiss through water,
- Pale sheets of water gleam in the windy street.
- The pealing of bells is lost in a drive of rain-drops.
- Remote and hurried the great bells beat.
- 'I am the one whom life so shrewdly betrayed,
- Misfortune dogs me, it always hunted me down.
- And to-day the woman I love lies dead.
- I gave her roses, a ring with opals;
- These hands have touched her head.
- 'I bound her to me in all soft ways,
- I bound her to me in a net of days,
- Yet now she has gone in silence and said no word.
- How can we face these dazzling things, I ask you?
- There is no use: we cry: and are not heard.
- 'They cover a body with roses . . . I shall not see it . . .
- Must one return to the lifeless walls of a city
- Whose soul is charred by fire? . . . '
- His eyes are closed, his lips press tightly together.
- Wheels hiss beneath us. He yields us our desire.
- 'No, do not stare so--he is weak with grief,
- He cannot face you, he turns his eyes aside;
- He is confused with pain.
- I suffered this. I know. It was long ago . . .
- He closes his eyes and drowns in death again.'
- The wind hurls blows at the rain-starred glistening windows,
- The wind shrills down from the half-seen walls.
- We flow on the mournful wind in a dream of dying;
- And at last a silence falls.
| "Over the Darkened City" is reprinted from The House of Dust: A Symphony. Conrad Aiken. Boston: The Four Seas Company, 1920. |
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